God’s grace is a demonstration of his love.
For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.
For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved.
He who believes in Him is not condemned; but he who does not believe is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God.
Sometimes, I have trouble accepting his love completely. I do not doubt that he loves me or the world but there are times when I cannot accept his love. I have been so conditioned by life to expect that love comes with a price. This notion is something I struggle with constantly. I figure it might be something I struggle with for a while until I allow the walls I’ve put up over the years to crumble.
It is not I that should put walls around me but God. He should be my wall of protection. If I cannot reach a place where this is the case, I will never come to fully accept his love for me. This constant wanting to please in my own strength has set me up for many set backs in my walk with Christ.
In my last post I questioned the true definition of surrender and repentance:
According to Webster surrender means :
- to agree to stop fighting, hiding, resisting, etc., because you know that you will not win or succeed
- to give the control or use of (something) to someone else
- to allow something (such as a habit or desire) to influence or control you
With the first definition, If I keep hiding and fighting my way to my own idea of salvation without giving up and just accepting God’s love for me, I will be DOOMED to a life of hardships, pain and eventually spiritual death ( ruin).
Jonah was resistant from God’s order and fled from his duties. He was also hiding from what he was called to do. He had his own personal hang ups, he didn’t want God to forgive a nation because of his own personal grudge. However, God’s love and mercy extended even past Jonah. Sometimes our stubbornness can affect those around us, but that’s another story.
Like Jonah, I am hiding. You know, some people will say ” This person treats me so well and thus I don’t know what to do with myself. How should I respond? Feel?” Instead of just letting go and experiencing true freedom from Grace, I feel I must do everything in my power to keep it in my life.
The idea of something being free is incomprehensible. Is anything TRULY free in this life? But the more I hide or run away, the more I feel the burden of separation and desperation. Desperate to find the love I’m hiding from.
We all have habits that we cling to. Deep rooted habits that we sometimes think are gone but when something happens we soon realize they never really left.
I warn everyone : Don’t ask God for anything you are not ready for. When I asked God to reveal every ounce of filth in my life, he readily did so. It was the scariest revelation in my life.
When you are so puffed up and not humble, you think you have all the answers and all the tools to serve God when in all honesty you don’t!
We don’t have anything that pleases God in us. We are dirty, filthy and fall short. We cannot do good. However, We can choose to surrender DAILY and accept God’s love.
The many characters in the bible all had something they struggle with and I admit that mine is accepting God’s love freely.
To enjoy the Joy of Grace we must let go and let God love us freely.
At the Home of Martha and Mary
As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him.
She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet listening to what he said.
But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!”
“Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things,
but few things are needed—or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.”