Monthly Archives: November 2013

Who am I?

In pain I can find joy. To see my humanity and  finally admit that I am nothing without the Almighty.

Who am I? Who am I in a world that is not my home? Who am I in a crowd that forsakes the ONE?

It’s so easy to get caught up in a lie. Easy to believe a lie. To believe that you will always stay in a rut, that no one loves you, that you’re not good enough, that you have something to prove. God’s love is unconditional. His love covers our sins and our short comings. His love will take us out of the pit and place us in his heavenly home. His love completed everything so we have nothing to prove.

True Joy comes from identity in Christ. Becoming more and more Christ-like everyday. The devil is real and he sends people, circumstances etc to distract us. We also wrestle with our flesh and it’s desires. The price was already paid and we are already heaven bound from the moment we repented and accepted Christ as our savior. However, we must restate our allegiance daily. We must keep focused on our destination: heaven. We don’t have to fight but just STAND. Stand with the armor of God. If we are overcome with too much, continue to stand and hide under the protection of God.

It’s so easy to forget who we are in a world that is not our home. It’s so easy to run away from God because we are afraid or want a faster solution. I am willing to admit that as a Christian I fall short daily and I fall short miserably. However, by the Grace of God I can run to him and ask for forgiveness. I can press the reset button and keep moving. It is by diligence and perseverance that we can see the face of God.

So today, I challenge myself and those reading to claim their inheritance and identity everyday. Say out loud ” I am a child of God. Christ has forgiven me and I have a new identity in him.” Don’t be afraid of anything. Be courageous!


Don’t Be A Know-It-All.

It is way too easy to become a know-it-all. Sometimes we can get so caught up in proving that our way is right that we forget that we don’t always know everything. Hey, we might even be right but that’s not the point. The point is expressing your views with love and care but also knowing when to walk away.

Sometimes we need to step back and let everything  speak for itself. I found joy in the realization that showing concern and love for someone was way better than proving my point. . I realized that it’s not always beneficial to prove a point or feel as if I know what is right or wrong.

What makes a know-it-all automatically wrong is their attitude and intention. Why are you expressing your viewpoint? Is it because you feel as if you are a veteran so you know more, or maybe it’s because this person is just too stupid to know better? ( I hope that’s not what you’re thinking). Are you emotionally attached to the topic at hand?

What it boils down to is this: in everything we say, say it with love. Love is all that matters. We are not required to change a person, or make them see our way but to let them know we love them.

This is why I have a big problem with the way some people share the gospel. They shove it down people’s throats or guilt trip people into accepting grace. ( Doesn’t work that way.) Refer to John 3:16-18.

This is also why I had to take a step back and reflect on my own behavior. Most of the time I do it because i’m concerned but when it comes to love, it’s really NOT love unless it’s shared and OPENLY expressed. No one can read minds or really see a person’s true intent. So make sure that your intentions are known and displayed.

A New Beginning/Answered Prayer.

I didn’t expect that God would answer my prayers so swiftly but it came in the form of a man. He came to me with a message that was meant to set my heart free.

I didn’t expect God to surprise me, turn my world upside down and put me on my head, blood rushing to my brain. I didn’t expect it to feel so good but hurt so much at the same time. I didn’t think such a time for introspection was needed. I thought i was headed in the right direction. Well, as I mentioned in my previous blog posts, something bigger than me was unfolding in front of me. Questions I’ve never thought i’d care about were bombarding my thoughts. For so long I didn’t realize i was running from my own fears. As soon as I opened my heart to speak God came swiftly with an answer. However, it came in the least likely way. At first, I was in doubt. I couldn’t believe it.

It amazes me how much God loves us. He doesn’t leave us hanging and has perfect timing. He was preparing me for this time. Change doesn’t happen over night but I know for a fact that he’s caught my attention.

To completely surrender brings true freedom. Easier said than done right? Well, maybe. But surrendering means just that: stop resisting. I suppose i’m a natural fighter? Or maybe a natural runner ( lol).  Either way, my point is this: God can bless us while teaching us a lesson. Surrender to him. It’s to draw us closer to him. Pay attention to all the cues and signs that God gives us when he is about to do something in our lives. Had I paid more attention, i’d be better prepared.

While on the path of righteousness, God will stop us dead in our tracks-knowing it’s time for the next level. He will prepare us for the pain and the labor, but if we miss it, we will flap around like fish out of water. Nothing in this life is perfect. Nothing is guaranteed to be pain free.

I’ve learned a lesson about true friendship and even love : Being defensive keeps us away from love. When we are so caught up in protecting ourselves we are incapable of expressing love. We become selfish. My relationships are changing. I am beginning to see the beauty in everything around me. There is a sense of freedom that I haven’t truly experienced before. I will continue to learn as God continues to remove the thick walls around my heart.

There is Joy in every painful experience. There is peace in every new beginning.