I am throwing down the plans for my own life. There has been a great conviction since the beginning to obey. And so finally after 5 months, I obeyed.
My heart is heavy. I am holding back tears. I thought that every time we do something for God we should experience joy and a fiery passion but right now I’m feeling pain and sorrow. I feel like I’ve lost something precious to me.
The pastor on Friday confirmed what I had prayed about. It was an indirect message but I felt it deep in my heart. That we shouldn’t cling to anything in this life. No matter how good it may seem, whether it’s a job , a person or a situation, If God says no, it means no.
I’ve always wanted to be obedient. However, my prayer for today is to accept God’s leading with joy, not sorrow.