I want to apologize for taking such a long break but at the same time, writers need time to recharge their batteries and find new inspiration.
God has been dealing with me within the last couple months and even though my circumstances have changed slightly, my spirit has changed dramatically.
Sin is becoming easier to look in the eye. I’ve been struggling with certain sins for many years and finally I am seeing things in a different light. Surrendering isn’t just feeling guilty, its changing ones views on sin and the specific sin in question. And not just one sin but laying down ALL known sin and asking God to reveal hidden ones.
I’m going through a tough time in the sense that God is taking over my life and I’m called to do something so unnatural to my character. It’s okay though. I know that he knows what is best for me and I honestly want to honor him with my life.
As for the future of this blog, well, the original purpose of this blog was to journal my journey towards healing and recording my experiences with God. However , I had a startling dream where God was pushing me to seek him directly and not through my experiences.
There are things I’m afraid of and that is believing a farce. I dislike being lied to. I don’t want to expect something I’m not certain about. I don’t have the gift of faith. But I feel I’m being pushed to believe that God can do miracles even for me.
When you completely surrender, God will take you to places in your heart that is hardened and will try to soften and kneed them into the image he wants to create. We are being molded and crafted and for each of us its personal. No two people have the same walk. So I can’t always go running for advice. There will be tines when I must have faith and believe.
I am praying for faith in the impossible because I serve a big God who can do anything and everything. I pray you have faith as well for whatever God is doing in your life today.