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Stand Still And Know That He Is God

I woke up this morning and looked up the word apathy. Apathy and depression get used interchangeably but they are not the same. You can feel apathetic and not be depressed. Disappointments and struggles in life can leave you feeling numb.

I have come to say that it is alright to have these feelings. I’ve come to tell you that it’s okay not to know what to do anymore or how to save yourself. As a human, we don’t know everything. We cannot do everything. When we push and push and press and press and try to do everything simply to keep up appearances, we are 1. being fake and simply trying to impress people around us, and 2. we are taking over God’s job.

I remember this song I use to sing when I was on my high school choir: ” Stand still and know that He is God.” Breaking it down it goes:

Stand still and know that he is God. /Know that He will never leave your side. /He’ll fight your battles IF YOU LET HIM, He’ll be your REFUGE, He’ll be your COMFORT./ So You should Let go, Let God Have His way.

I thought about Job, who fell on hard times, losing everything including his health and his children. Instead of him trying to figure things out and PUSH and impress his friends, he went to God. He went to God with his raw and honest feelings. He knew God was sovereign……this sovereignty of God that ….God is truly Mighty, a King, the creator and in control over everything.  He didn’t try to cure himself, find a new job, adopt more children, He simply went to the one who created everything.  He ran to God for an explanation, He didn’t try to coerce God with His prayers. He didn’t try to bribe God with his worship. He simply sought God with the very issue on his heart. He was real, He was open and He was humble.

It’s not your burden to carry! It’s not your battle to fight! Bad things happen in life, it’s not your fault! Let it go and let it be! Cry out to God and let Him hear the pain and concerns in your heart. Your friends and family may not understand what you’re going through and they might not even love you in the way that you need, but this is the defining moment. The time where you learn to go to God only. He might send His hands and feet along the way, but keep them in their rightful place: as His hands and feet.

God will never dismiss your feelings. God will never make it seem as if you have to work harder, push harder and bust your brains over an issue. He will never ask you to do more than you can handle. If He calls you to it, He will strengthen you.

In the end, Job was restored and it was better than how he started. But no where did it say that Job had to manufacture his blessings. God simply gave them to him in due season.

 

3/25/2017

Its time for a joy post! YAY!

  • This morning I had a delicious breakfast: my new found love – well done sunny side up eggs with basil, cheese and spinach. Gluten free garlic toast and some turkey bacon. I washed it all down with hot “tonic” water. Y’all might wonder why breakfast and food means so much to me. Well, when you have to fight yourself daily: fatigue and aches and pains, any amount of energy to make a healthy balanced breakfast is something to celebrate!
  • After a horrible and long couple of weeks, I finally resumed my routine! This has been a struggle for me for many years. You know how you beat yourself up for falling off the bandwagon. Not anymore! 😀 Slow and steady wins the race!
  • I got to see the sun rise!
  • I have made peace with my feelings. This doesn’t mean my problems go away, but I trust in a loving and powerful God that can do anything, including healing my pain and making me strong. I don’t have to bear unnecessary burdens alone, anymore.
  • I’m thankful for being alive today!

What are you guys thankful for? What brings you joy this morning?

He Loves Them but He Loves Me Too

Something doesn’t sit right in my soul.

For the last few months I have been thinking about how we as a society and a people love to dismiss people’s emotions. We dismiss people who are mistreated, abused, bullied and hurt. The only way we notice them is when they find some inner strength to overcome their situation. But when will someone fight for the oppressed? When will someone take notice of those who feel as if they have no voice? Why do we turn a blind eye to those that are suffering? Why do we blame them for the way they are treated and for the way they feel?

It boggles my mind. This unnecessary burden for people to be strong in the face of trials. Leaving them all alone to fight for themselves. We call them weak, insecure, etc. simply for feeling honest emotions. The Bible says that our tongues can kill. We can tear a person to pieces by what we say and do to them. So why must the burden fall on the victim?

God promised that He hears the cries of the oppressed. David felt the brunt of mistreatment in his life. Instead of beating himself up, he ran to God and expressed his pain and anger. He didn’t have to pretend to be strong! He didn’t have to pretend to have it all together. How much stress and anger do we internalize when we just shrug things off and bury them deep within our souls. Those feelings never really go away! They just sit there in the depths and corners of our hearts, festering like infected sores. We refuse to address it because we fear we might be labeled as weak, or insecure, or caring what other people think.

I promise myself from this day forward to invest my love and care to all people. Not this mushy, sentimental, shallow love that people are trying to push on us. But, life breathing love. This life breathing love contains: loving correction, encouragement, affirmation, and care.

I don’t want to be fake…looking strong and confident on the outside, but dying on the inside. I want my strength to come from inside out. I want to be free to own my feelings , good and bad and then use them for good. I don’t want to put everyone in a happy box. I want to see people for who they truly are but yet, still love them because Christ first loved me.

Stop making excuses for people! We must hold each other accountable for how we treat others. We must raise up our standards. We must not tolerate bad behavior and put all the burdens on victims. We must actively take a stand.

To  those that are feeling hurt and down trodden: run to Jesus. You do not have to do anything but hand it all to Him. He can take every pain and burden in your heart, give you insight on how to deal with the situation and send loving and kind people into your life. You do not have to settle for feeling alone or not having a voice. God will be your voice. He might reveal to you the nature of your situation, but He will never leave you there to figure it out alone or fight it yourself.

You are not alone! Jesus and many of those that loved God, were misunderstood. Just remember that God is fighting for you. God hears the cries of the oppressed. Do not think for a moment that your feelings are dismissed or unheard. He hears all of your prayers. God does not have favorites. He loves them, but He loves you too!

 

 

I am Happy!

I woke up happy today.

Last night, I went to sleep while praying. It was comforting, ending the day in God’s presence. It was nothing fancy, just directing all my thoughts and emotions to Him, expressing everything I felt.

When I woke up, I felt a sense of joy and peace. The beauty of it all was that I allowed myself to be free. I will be honest, I had people telling me to keep quiet and not to feel a certain way, but I allowed myself to feel the worst of my feelings. I never expressed them but I felt them. I was also feeling really sick in my body and allowed myself to get full rest. I slept and ate whenever I wanted. This happened for a week. There were times I tried to talk myself out of it. There were times fear of not being strong enough or not getting things done crept into my mind. However, I silenced them really quickly and went back to resting my mind and body.

There is something so powerful about complete rest. When I felt the need to worry or be anxious about anything, I heard the loving voice of God saying that He is taking care of me. Someway and somehow, God will provide all that I need.

I keep thinking about God’s sovereignty. I had almost forgotten about it, being so focused on His loving friendship and parent-like care. But we must not forget that God is King and in complete control! He has an amazing way of putting the puzzle pieces of life together. He has a way of fixing our mess and creating a happy ending. He has a way of changing hearts. I needed to believe that my prayers were heard by a powerful and mighty God. I needed to believe that He is the one that changes hearts. Sometimes we believe that our will is higher than God’s, but if we read the Bible close enough, we see many times how His will and purpose prevails. He gives us chances to repent and turn back to Him, but none can contend with God. None can say they are their own god with their own power. When we believe that God is powerful and completely in charge, combined with love and care for us all, it allows us to completely trust in Him.

I woke up knowing that I am where I needed to be. I woke up knowing that if I wasn’t, He is faithful to correct me and set me on the right path. I woke up knowing that I am fine just the way I am. We get so caught up in being so strong that we forget that we don’t need to be. My strength comes from who God is! I can cry, scream, ask questions and share what is in my heart with a God that hears! I can fall apart and trust that He will mend me back together, as if I never was broken in the first place. He places a force field around my heart every time I give Him my pain!

When I am mistreated, I learned how to pray. Not just for my enemies but for myself. I learned that I have a God that will defend me. I use to cry that no one cared enough to ever stand up for me. I was the girl that stood up for everyone else, but was deserted when my time came. I find peace knowing that my God is fighting for me and I don’t have to anymore.

I find security knowing that I don’t really need anyone. Everything I need is in God. People are simply His hands and feet. We live in a needy world where people feel that they NEED people to survive. We must do whatever we can possible to keep all kinds of people around us to feel validated and secure. I know now that in my youth, that there was a wisdom in knowing that I did not need anyone. God has, in his wisdom, led people to me that have been a blessing to me. I cherish all those that obeyed God. This also released a burden from my heart. I don’t need to figure things out. I don’t need to have all the answers. PRAY! Point everyone to Jesus. If Jesus is the savior of our souls and the solution to all our troubles, then He is the one I should point to.

Jesus has fully consumed my life. Of course, there is so much to learn, but I am certain that He will never abandon me. I can finally rest and be free! No more chasing the wind…I find fulfillment in simply being God’s child and wherever He leads me, I will go.

 

Firm Foundation

Don’t run from opposition but stand firm and allow God to mature you.

Tell Him all that concerns you,  all that troubles you, all that you feel.

God is not distant or far away. He is close by and always available.

 

You might not understand what’s going on, but He does. If you obey Him, He will protect you and lead you to where you need to be.

 

You are human, and many times you are weak , but God is strong and He is powerful! He is full of grace and will give you some if you ask.

 

Find encouragement and peace in His grace. Stand firm, stand strong and most of all continue to do what you were created to do.

 

 

 

Jealousy: That Toxic Infection of The Heart.

Jealousy is a sneaky but dangerous infection of the heart. It is rooted in insecurity. I was going to write about people who struggle with jealousy and insecurity but I want to focus on those that are on the receiving end.

Being the recipient of jealous actions is toxic and slowly, but surely, it has the power to destroy you. It has the power to make you feel small, to doubt yourself. It backs you up in a corner. It makes you question yourself on many occasions, wondering if something is wrong with you.

I want to tell you a secret. Well, it’s not really a secret but let me remind you that who you are is not defined by anyone else. Continue to shine, live, laugh and have fun! Continue to strive and grow and chase after everything you wanted in life.

Some of these jealous people will smile in your face, give you gifts and even pretend they are kind. But you can tell, deep down, that something isn’t right. PUT YOUR FOOT DOWN. Do not allow anyone to reduce you or bully you into submission. Stand your ground and say enough is enough. You don’t have to be rude about it but speak your truth!

People will try to dismiss you. They will say, “she doesn’t know what she’s talking about” or,” She’s sensitive”, or ” who cares and ignore it”. And while I do believe that ignoring petty foolishness is the key to success and happiness in life, there are some things that will require you to address it in a mature way. When people know the lines and boundaries they cannot cross, it let’s them know that their jealous tendencies cannot infect you. Your boundaries are like immunity. It is a wall of protection from behaviors and comments that are meant to keep you in a position that will feed their infection.

They will hate you, talk bad about you ( I always say if its not to my face then it’s none of my business) and show disdain at your success and accomplishments but leave them in God’s hands.

God said vengeance is His job. God doesn’t like jealousy, pride and bullying (oppression) and God has a way of either convicting someone’s heart or silencing them all together.

 

 

 

Obey The Voice of The Lord

I’m not sure what to title this post. I’m not even sure this post will have a specific, main point but I have a few things I need to share for future reference.

  • Disobedience: It is costly. It can cost us our joy, peace, well-being, health, and life both spiritually and physically. It may seem trivial, the things God tells us to do, but He knows why we must do it.
  • Responsibility:  We are responsible for taking care of ourselves and making sure that our spirit and physical bodies are nourished. We are responsible for always being alert and on guard, knowing how to respond in all situations.

Don’t get caught up in petty foolishness. Some times we are tempted to let our guards down. But some conversations are costly. Some conversations can rob us of our peace. We must be picky and choosy about who we spend our time with, the shows we watch, where we go, etc. And if we steer off, run to Jesus and ask Him For forgiveness and help. Honestly, none of these things are possible without Christ. We cannot do anything right without Him. I no longer try to do good because I fail.

But lately my prayers have changed. I ask God to give me strength. I ask God for direction. I ask God for peace. I ask God what to do. I ask God to make me kind and loving. I ask God for all the promises in His word. And then in faith, going about my life…knowing He is faithful to do those things. Even as events are happening in my life, I am whispering a prayer.

When you are in constant prayer, you slow down and are mindful of your surroundings and your own internal feelings. You lift it all up to God and He tells you how to respond.

Disobedience is costly. I take full responsibility for how I am feeling right now. While I have so much to be thankful for, because of my disobedience, I am dealing with trivial feelings that could’ve been avoided. Instead of being thankful with all my heart, my mind is replaying what was meant as a distraction and of no significant purpose.

Guard your heart…..truly…guard it. Protect your heart and mind from everything and anything that will pull you away from the Joy of God.

It is MY responsibility to do so. I know in my heart that today is the LAST DAY that I am dealing with this issue. By faith I believe that God will give me the strength to walk away from pettiness and toxic conversations. It is not my duty to do anything but obey the voice of the LORD.

 

I guess I found a title after all…”Obey The voice of the Lord”.