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The Price of Kindness

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Unnecessary Disclaimer: I’m being honest and open.

A series of events led to my eye open experience.

There is a price to pay for being kind. In a cruel world, people see meekness and kindness as weakness.

I witnessed this even in a church! The very place where meekness, kindness and gentleness should be respected and even honored, the meek and the kind are shunned, insulted and made to feel inadequate. Brashness, cruelty and harsh words were celebrated as strength, used to control, manipulate and crush it’s recipients.

It was covered up in the guise of tough love, honesty, boldness, playful banter etc. We have lots of fluffy words for cruelty these days.

It’s tempting to want revenge, or to prove yourself to these people but this is my conclusion.

I want to remain kind. I want to be myself and who God made me to be. It takes a lot of strength NOT to fit in. It takes a lot of strength to keep going after being rejected, mistreated and misunderstood.

I had someone tell me that kindness is fake. Poor soul. Poor soul believes kindness is fake and rudeness is strength.

In wisdom, you’ll know that sort of person is troubled and being unkind back will just exasperate the issue.

I think these experiences, while they hurt me deeply , has made me stronger.

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Photo by Annie Spratt on Unsplash

I have fallen in love with myself even more. I pick and choose my battles wisely. If I make a mistake, I apologize , fix it as best as I can and move forward. I also know that my actions aren’t always kind but I want to be kinder.

Kindness for me is peace. It’s about being at peace with oneself and others. I don’t have time to be cruel. Cruelty is boring! There is so much to do in life than plotting against your next victim.

After every heartache I make two declarations: I will serve God no matter what and I want to do the right thing.

Love is patient and kind. Listen, I don’t always get it right, no one will but being consistently cruel to people, even those that have hurt you isn’t right! There is no justification for it!

Forgiveness is a choice! A process yes, but it’s a choice you have to make.

Forgiveness gives you internal peace in a chaotic world!

I was mad at God over things in my life, including my own choices. Now thinking about it, as painful as it was, I don’t regret it.

In a fallen world, pain builds character. All of my struggles and heartaches, sins (yup) and mistakes , not one piece or part must be forgotten for they all are the building blocks to my character.

The Bible clearly shows us the faults, mistakes and triumphs of it’s characters. There is constant character development.

The most important elements to life are our character and godliness. The quest for material things ends with death but our character and our godliness will be tested in the next life.

I learned through it all that God loves me too.

Guide Me , O Thou Great Jehovah by William Willams

  1. You Know you are getting old when you can understand and truly feel the depth of a hymn. 
  2. This morning, this wonderful hymn just touched my soul and I sang it with all the strength of my lungs!
  3. Guide me, O Thou great *Jehovah, [*Redeemer]
    Pilgrim through this barren land;
    I am weak, but Thou art mighty,
    Hold me with Thy pow’rful hand.
    Bread of heaven, Bread of heaven,
    Feed me till I want no more;
    Feed me till I want no more.
  4. I feel like I’m in a barren land, trying to reach the promised land. I feel utterly weak, confused and helpless sometimes. Actually, most of the time. But truly, I knew that my strength only comes from God. The best days of my life were marked by constant prayer, moment by moment. I had to pray for strength to get through the day, to sleep, and to walk in healing. When I stop praying, I feel weak, confused and insecure!  God’s mighty hand keeps me. He is the bread of heaven! His word feeds and nourishes. His presence is nourishment and it strengthens, me lacking in nothing.
  5. Open now the crystal fountain,
    Whence the healing stream doth flow;
    Let the fire and cloudy pillar
    Lead me all my journey through.
    Strong Deliv’rer, strong Deliv’rer,
    Be Thou still my Strength and Shield;
    Be Thou still my Strength and Shield.
  6. Again, God is the fountain in which healing flows.  When I was so consumed with my daily endeavors and pushed God out of the equation, my fountain of health ran dry. I had no strength to carry on.
  7. Lord, I trust Thy mighty power,
    Wondrous are Thy works of old;
    Thou deliver’st Thine from thralldom,
    Who for naught themselves had sold:
    Thou didst conquer, Thou didst conquer
    Sin and Satan and the grave,
    Sin and Satan and the grave.
  8. This one was omitted from the version I was listening to, but it’s in the original for a reason. “Lord, I trust thy mighty power, wondrous are thy works of old!” The God that performed miracles then and even in my own life, I MUST TRUST HIM! There are areas in our lives where we do not trust God, despite him showing us what he is capable of. God conquered our sins, Satan and the grave. In this I must choose to find peace! The focus more of him and not just on perfection or performing the law, but a relationship with him. Relationships builds the foundation of trust.
  9. When I tread the verge of Jordan,
    Bid my anxious fears subside;
    Death of death and hell’s Destruction,
    Land me safe on Canaan’s side.
    Songs of praises, songs of praises,
    I will ever give to Thee;
    I will ever give to Thee.
  10. Fear nothing. No matter what happens or what we face in this life, including death, trust that God will safely get you to where you need to be. Whether it’s your full capacity of maturity and to fulfill his plan for your life to you being with him in heaven in the end. Sing His Praises in the storm! Sing with understanding. Don’t just do it because people say so. MEAN IT WITH UNDERSTANDING!!!!

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What Do You Want?

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This is an on whim post.

I am not only sharing this but it’s documentation for future reference. I will save this in the bin of things to read after a year or two.

This weekend was stressful. I haven’t had to deal with this issue in a long time and it was quite a shock for me to deal with it once again. You know when you get tired of dealing with an issue for years but feel trapped? You’ve tried everything possible but nothing works.

I’m going to be real and raw : when you pray to God and ask for help and he gives you 1 million encouraging words like : peace and hold on and go forth and be strong, only for you to stare that same problem in the face.

You’ve tried everything, nothing works. You reach out for help but people don’t care, don’t understand. They leave you there to figure it out on your own but wonder why you don’t want anything to do with them.

We live in a world where people are cruel. People don’t care about you until you’re dead. Then they will say, I wish I knew or I wish I had done something to prevent this from happening. But all the while, you had asked them for help but they didn’t care to help.

So one day, I was fed up and took a leap of faith. Where I am today was because of my own hard work, vision and faith in God.

I have made peace with the fact that people don’t care and are cruel. These people will try to kill your dreams. They will open their mouths and use their words to kill you. If you are in a broken place, they will succeed. The only way to protect yourself in a broken place is to have selective hearing.

YOU MUST SHUN AT ALL COST anything negative being spoken to you. It’s not anything  mystical, it’s a simple fact that your ears are a gateway to your heart. Your eyes and ears are gateways to your heart. Your mouth is the exit of your heart. So those people are speaking from what is in their hearts. But if you listen and observe what they are saying, they can begin to shape and mold you.

You must NOT allow anyone to plant that seed in your heart. Everything you become starts from your heart. This is why the Bible warns us about guarding our hearts.

The greatest way to silence your enemies is to continue living your life as if their words have no weight. Your mere presence is a threat to them and that’s their battle to fight.

So I ask, ” what do you want? What makes you happy?” Do what YOU want without apology. If it’s wrong, God will make it right. If it’s too far left, God will push it a little more to the left. Let GOD mold you, not people. Don’t you ever do anything simply because people say so, but because you know in your heart it’s the right thing to do. Everyone is living their lives, including those trying to dictate yours.

The greatest thing you could ever do is accept yourself as you are.

The way you are is perfect and God can use you as you are right now. Perfectionism is a sham. It’s just there to keep you crippled in an infinite loop of madness,  unlike the line of progression of authenticity.

Being authentic comes with a price: you will have people that love you and those that hate you. At first it might seem as if everyone hates you but there will be those that will identify you and admire you. The beauty of it is that when you were trying to please people and remain unnoticed by fitting in, people still hated you. But now  you know who loves you as the real you.

Everyone goes through this. The journey between childhood and adulthood is a turbulent one. It is an uncertain phase and you must learn to shift out what you have been taught with what is truth. Not everything taught is truth.

Who do you want to be? I stopped asking God what I should do with my life. You will either know from youth or walk into it as you live. Most of us walk into it. God doesn’t reveal things at once. If so, then we wouldn’t need him and life would be predicable. What would we learn? For those that already know, only know so much.

Life is like jumping in the dark. You can’t see beyond eye view and sometimes you can’t see at all. You must take jumps: some small and some big. Where you land, the floor tiles light up, enabling you to see. As you keep jumping,3 you are able to see what was behind you and from eye view, what’s around you. If you refuse to jump, you won’t be able to see or make progress.

We also jump in our own ways. Some of us only have one leg. Some of us have a crutch. Others have both legs. Some of us are taller and some shorter. Others of us are heavier and some lighter. The way we jump and how we land are influenced by these factors. People might say one way is better than the other but that’s not true. God made you as you are and even if it was from life’s circumstances, this is who you are. The way you jump and land is YOUR STORY and it’s a unique one. It’s YOURS. Striving for the unknown, best jump is not only ignorant but a waste of time. We shouldn’t strive to have the same story but to find ways to share our own unique stories. We will find our people. We will find common ground with those that jump differently but we are all here to motivate and encourage one another to jump.

When we bicker and fight we stop jumping. Then our world becomes dark and we can only see what’s behind us.

This year I’ve thrown down the veil of perfectionism and take up the mantle of faith.

I will walk as I am, talk as I am and live as I am. I will keep jumping and leaping and landing. I will let my leaps paint a picture of light around me.

With faith, no one can crush you. With faith, no one can take away your dreams or your joy. With faith, hope follows and with hope there is peace.

The bible says do not fear EVIL people with their wicked schemes.

Be still in the presence of the LORD, and wait patiently for him to act. Don’t worry about evil people who prosper or fret about their wicked schemes. Psalm 37:7 NLT

Just keep leaping and landing and one day you’ll find yourself where you need to be. The Lord is faithful to guide our imperfect steps. He is God and we are not. Accept who you are and cling tightly to the one who has the power to save you.

 

 

Joy Post – I Am Thankful

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Stress and worry abounds.

But I’m tired.

I wave my white flag of surrender but not defeat.

Today, I want to encourage anyone in a stressful, demanding, or confusing situation to slow down and trust God.

Take a deep breath…

Inhale…

exhale…

Pray and pray some more, but then just wait on God.

It’s tiring trying to figure things out and make decisions right way. God knows the future, we don’t. We don’t always know the right path to take but if we pray and leave it in his hands he will create a path for us like he did with Moses and the red sea.

God can part any red sea in your life. To me, since I love symbolism, Moses staff represents the Word of God. It is his strength, a rod of protection, and a symbol of authority. When he held it up, by faith in God, the red sea was parted, he and his people were able to cross over to safety.

No matter what calamity pursues you, God is in control.

It’s so easy to forget to take things a day at a time. Tomorrow is not here yet, so enjoy the day graced to you. Life is not guaranteed, it’s a gift.

Taken directly from www.biblegateway.com:

Matthew 6:24 – 34 NKJV

You Cannot Serve God and Riches

24 “No one can serve two masters; for either he will hate the one and love the other, or else he will be loyal to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and mammon.

Do Not Worry

25 “Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27 Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature?

28 “So why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; 29 and yet I say to you that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30 Now if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?

31 “Therefore do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.

In the scheme of things, when life gets tough, we forget just how blessed we are. We take everything for granted, as we can only see what we want. I had to take a step back and just thank God for ALL that I have now. From the smallest to the greatest.

My struggles are to remind me of who is in control because it’s just too easy to fall back into that habit of self-sufficiency. The Christian life is marked by complete trust and rest in God and whenever I find myself idolizing my own strengths, skills, talents and knowledge, is when all hell break loose, literally! But when I calm down, humble myself and trust God, that’s when doors open.

Let me stop rambling, I’m sure you get the point now.

Until next time,

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Daily Ramblings – The Perfect Person

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I admit defeat.

I admit that I have hit a brick wall and don’t know how to climb it. That brick wall is a thought or even a belief. Something I’ve observed in my life from birth to current time.

Is there a perfect person to be found?

Someone that has all the qualities we admire and desire in a person?

People are on the quest for love and friendships. Dating and marriage advice plagues the internet, marriage coaches can be found on every IP address, relationship guru’s at every turn. Even sermons about friends, “frenemies”, toxic people etc.

Is there ever a perfect person? Can we ever find the perfect match? Someone with all we want and more?

I can’t offer answers, just questions. People say they’ve found the one. A man or woman that fits the list of all they wanted in a person, but what if that person fails? What if they don’t love you? Do you still chase after them simply because they fit your list,  or because they are accepted by everyone as being perfect for you?

Then we hear advice from 90 year – olds or people in decades long marriages and they say it takes hard work and commitment. That the person is completely different and yet they work hard at coming together with understanding. The highs and the lows of their relationship is met with the determination to never give up. These set of people focused less on the check list of a perfect person, but more so on the hard work and dedication it takes to love someone.

Another powerful testimony of love demonstrated by a father – who prayed 7 years for his son. He didn’t throw a tantrum at God asking why his son was bad and faulty – he simply prayed. He prayed, he said, even when things were getting worse as he prayed. Eventually his son turned around for the better.

Love without expectations, limits, unconditional love. In this world, what does that even mean? We can’t find this kind of love being encouraged anywhere,  but I think of the love God has shown me.

Let me share a personal story. There was a time when I turned away from God because of the weight of guilt and seeking perfection – doing works to gain God’s love.

When I returned to him, I would throw tantrums and hide whenever I was disappointed, mad or confused. I remember one day, while being very ill, laying in bed and feeling as if God was right there with me. I said to myself :  wow, I cannot hide from God. He is everywhere. I close my eyes and I hear him. I close my ears and I see him. I shut down my senses and He visits me. I cannot shut God out! He pursues me constantly. 

I was messed up, broken and hurt. I was ill. To the world I was worthless in every way. People could say : well she has nothing to offer society so why should anyone love her. Find a more suitable woman or friend. However, God didn’t say that about me. Time and time again I’d hear him say ” I know your heart”. He’d remind me that my worth did not come from how perfect I was – a job, education, social status (how many friends I had), how often I didn’t sin, how I looked etc,  but simply based on the fact that I am a being created by God. He said he saw my heart and with a heart like mine, he could work with it. He could break it down till it got soft, and then with his bare hands mold it and shape it.

Then he said something to me recently that was even better than before : that he is NOT judging me and that he will give me a new heart. Trust me guys, I read my bible and I knew I read that somewhere, so I did a quick google search and found it.

Here’s what that passage says:

Ezekiel 36 : 25- 27 (NLT)

 “Then I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you will be clean. Your filth will be washed away, and you will no longer worship idols. And I will give you a new heart, and I will put a new spirit in you. I will take out your stony, stubborn heart and give you a tender, responsive heart.  And I will put my Spirit in you so that you will follow my decrees and be careful to obey my regulations…”

I admit defeat. I cannot predict what God will do. I cannot predict what God will show or teach me. All I can do is have my questions and wait on His answers.  As I go through life, learning about Him and having experiences, I know I will know what I need to know. Ultimately, God is in absolute control. I just want a soft and responsive heart to hear his voice when he talks to me.

Till next time,

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Goody Goody Two-Shoes

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Okay.

So, the last few weeks went by slowly AND quickly. A lot was done, tears shed, confusion, and pain. There was also happiness, forgiveness and newness.

Something stood out to me though, as I gazed into the mirror of introspection: that the quest for complete perfection and high expectations is not worth the pain.

It is a crippling mindset that robs you from joy and experiencing life on a day by day basis. It can even rob you of your blessing – that might not always come as you want it to look like. You want your blessing to be perfect, a blessing that makes complete sense to you and acceptable to everyone around you. A blessing that makes you feel comfortable and safe.

But what if your blessing was dressed up as something completely different. Something you never expected? What if it was to show you just how much you are loved and cherished despite feeling as if it is unattainable? What if that blessing was something you never thought you could accomplish but, despite it being beyond your capabilities, God breathed life into it and made it reality? What if you can finally enjoy life without worrying about everything, all the time?

What if you can worship God without fear? To run to God and cling to him even when you fall short? Holding onto Him for dear life and trusting that He will keep you, guide you, fix you and heal you?

Because if you turn away, what else will you live for? Love requires bravery. It forces you to open up and take a risk to give and receive something that has the potential to:

  1. Hurt you
  2. Confuse you

God doesn’t always answer my prayers the way I want him to and that left me feeling really upset and confused. I threw a fit asking God why me and why now and why this? I wanted to hide from God because I thought He failed me.

I wonder if this is how the Jews of Jesus’ time felt, waiting for the messiah to come and save them from earthly oppression. However, they had their own interpretation of scripture and God had his own divine will. We can try as much as we want to control the events of our lives and personally interpret God’s plan for our lives but God’s Will prevails.

If Esther was a modern day Christian, other believers and even her well meaning Pastor would tell her : “Sweet Esther, don’t marry the King, because gurl, he ain’t saved.” Not knowing that sweet Esther was called to be queen so that she could prevent a Jewish genocide. She needed to marry the King to access his status and to demonstrate the power of God in a very meek and humble way.

Nothing in life is cookie cutter, one-size fits all and I’m sick of trying to be the “Good Little Christian Girl”. It’s something all Christians face at one point in their journey.

Jesus died so we can be free. This freedom has become cliche. Free from what? Yes, free from sin. But what God truly wants is not a religious set of puppets that crosses every “I” and dots every “T”, knows all the church lingo and scripture, can debate, lay hands on the sick, cast out demons and speak in tongues.

God wants those with a heart for Him. A heart turned to Him. Hearts that will cry out to Him in every circumstance: good and bad. A heart that acknowledges Him, like David. David cried out to God in good times and bad. David was by no means perfect but he remained true to Himself.

Jesus saved us from the system of religion, the bondage of perfectionism, the opinions of humans, and gave us freedom to worship, love, and to be at peace with one another.

I am tired, aren’t you? I’m tired of all the pressure, internally and externally, to be more than what I am today. I can only do what I can do today but my hope is that as I continue on this journey with God, that I will grow closer to him.

My goal is no longer to simply be a Christian, but to be a daughter of God: to sit at his feet like Mary and listen.

Why the title?

Well, I was stumped. I didn’t know what to call this post so I whispered a little prayer and instantly felt to name it goody two-shoes.

Laughs

Bold right? Imagine that. Well guess what? GOOD! Honesty is the beginning of deliverance. Never be ashamed of what God can deliver you from.

I had to google search the term because it’s been years since I last heard it. A goody two- shoes in simple terms is a people-pleaser and God cannot use or connect with one.

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Sanctification Is A Slow Process

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Sanctification is a slow process. You don’t just wake up one day and all your bad habits are gone. That’s why there is this concept called the “renewing of your mind”. We are also encouraged to guard our hearts. The parable of the sower – the good soil – waits patiently, diligently working on the seed that was planted, until it grew big and strong and produced good fruit.

What made that good soil different from the others was perseverance. Nothing stopped them. Healthy trees need pruning. Healthy trees still get bugs on them. Healthy trees still need maintenance, and a sick tree can be made healthy again, when tended to.

On this journey towards sanctification : DO NOT GIVE UP. Heart break, disappointment, confusion or even sin, cling to Jesus! Sanctification is a life long process of pruning. The goal is to make us more Christ-like – producing the FRUIT of the HOLY SPIRIT- bearing good fruit. The goal of this fruit is to be loving and kind to those around us, just like He is to us.

Quick Glossary:

Pruning– trim (a tree, shrub, or bush) by cutting away dead or overgrown branches or stems, especially to increase fruitfulness and growth.

Vinedresser– a person who prunes, trains, and cultivates vines.

John 15(NKJV) 1-17

The True Vine

“I am the true vine, and My Father is the vinedresser. Every branch in Me that does not bear fruit He takes away; and every branch that bears fruit He prunes, that it may bear more fruit. You are already clean because of the word which I have spoken to you. Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in Me.

 “I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing.  If anyone does not abide in Me, he is cast out as a branch and is withered; and they gather them and throw them into the fire, and they are burned.  If you abide in Me, and My words abide in you, you will ask what you desire, and it shall be done for you. By this My Father is glorified, that you bear much fruit; so you will be My disciples.

Love and Joy Perfected

“As the Father loved Me, I also have loved you; abide in My love.  If you keep My commandments, you will abide in My love, just as I have kept My Father’s commandments and abide in His love.

 “These things I have spoken to you, that My joy may remain in you, and that your joy may be full. This is My commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends. You are My friends if you do whatever I command you.  No longer do I call you servants, for a servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all things that I heard from My Father I have made known to you. You did not choose Me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit, and that your fruit should remain, that whatever you ask the Father in My name He may give you.  These things I command you, that you love one another.

Let me break this down for you: First we must know that we serve a Loving God. All my problems flow from a belief of an unloving, unfair God. Here, Jesus tells us to abide in God’s love. Once we take our eyes off of our loving savior, like Peter, we begin to sink.

Second, abiding in the Greek – G3306- menō means –

  1. to remain, abide

    1. in reference to place

      1. to sojourn, tarry

      2. not to depart

        1. to continue to be present

        2. to be held, kept, continually

    2. in reference to time

      1. to continue to be, not to perish, to last, endure

        1. of persons, to survive, live

    3. in reference to state or condition

      1. to remain as one, not to become another or different

  2. to wait for, await one

Therefore, never give up on God or your salvation! Sanctification is a long process of pruning with the goal of love. Your requirements are to stand under the grace of God and to obey Christ’s command of loving one another. When you abide or stay close to Christ, renewing your mind with his word and letting His Spirit work in you; you become loving, kind, patient etc. Evil things that once gave you pleasure and satisfaction, no longer do.

Don’t give up. God loves you with all your faults, sins and preconceived notions. He will hold up a mirror to your face and show you what’s in your heart. At first it will be painful, you will be kicking and screaming. You will question God, get angry with people, sin and be tempted to leave the faith, but don’t. Hold on tight to Christ, even when you do not feel joy in your heart. God is faithful to comfort you, expose you and heal you where you are. The reward is renewed strength, peace and ultimately joy- that is your strength. Pain and hardships humbles us, softens us and makes us compassionate towards others.

God Bless,

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Establish My Way , Oh Mighty God

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Established definition: having been in existence for a long time and therefore recognized and generally accepted.

When God establishes a thing, it means it was already predetermined by Him and will come to pass.

I am faced with a great decision, one that has left me a bit tired and overwhelmed. I was asking various people for advice, input and record of experiences, conducted research and even listened to negative comments, just to glean any sort of direction.

However, I had to go back to my christian roots and pray to Almighty God, who, I should’ve consulted first with more fervency. I took a deep breath and google searched Bible scriptures on making choices. The ones that stood out to me were:

Psalms 16:9– The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.

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Genesis 41:32 -And for that the dream was doubled unto Pharaoh twice; it is because the thing is established by God, and God will shortly bring it to pass.

The first scripture led me to the second one. It was the second one that my eyes opened wide and I realized what God is trying to show me.

I can stress, I can worry. I can be logical and plan out everything. I can consult people and I can ask for as much advice as needed. I can even make a decision and believe it’s right for me, but in the end, whatever Almighty God had established, will come to pass regardless of what decisions I make. When a sentence has a “but” in it, it means one thing is doing something, BUT another is doing something else. So while we are living our lives and making daily choices, God knows exactly where He wants us to go. For those of us that believe and trust in God this is his promise to us:

Proverbs 3:5-12 (MSG)  

Trust God from the bottom of your heart;
    don’t try to figure out everything on your own.
Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go;
    he’s the one who will keep you on track.
Don’t assume that you know it all.
    Run to God! Run from evil!
Your body will glow with health,
    your very bones will vibrate with life!
Honor God with everything you own;
    give him the first and the best.
Your barns will burst,
    your wine vats will brim over.
But don’t, dear friend, resent God’s discipline;
    don’t sulk under his loving correction.
It’s the child he loves that God corrects;
    a father’s delight is behind all this.

Let’s be real for a moment. You’re asking the big question ” SO HOW DO WE KNOW God’s VOICE?”

The Bible doesn’t have answers flying out at us like a personalized oracle. However, I remember there were times I’d hear a loud and firm NO in my spirit when I’m about to do something or go somewhere God doesn’t want me to go. Other times, I’d have reoccurring nightmares or dreams. Sometimes it’s a strong urge or leading.

Hearing God’s voice and walking in His established ways requires an ongoing relationship with Him. If you spend time with Him and talk to Him about your issues and choices, He will answer you in due season. Sometimes He will be require us to wait.

God is very real and is not limited to a page in a book. Wisdom requires us to take what we have read, and implement them in our lives. In the Bible, the Holy Spirit speaks and has a tangible voice : whether it’s through his disciples or prophets. The Holy Spirit also speaks to us. Do you believe that God still speaks to us today? Why must we run to anyone else but God himself. If Jesus is our model for prayer, did he not hear the Lord for himself? Did he not make time to be with God in the mountains? Reading the Apostles’ journeys with God, did they not rely on the Holy Spirit as well? God said he will pour out His Spirit on all of humanity and He will live inside of us. So why must we look to other people for what God can do for us? God might send people, but that’s what He will do : SEND.

What I’m trying to say is, as hard as it is, seek God first, and allow him to have the final say in your decisions. We may consult others for input and that’s fine, but ultimately, we must submit our plans and decisions to the Lord and trust that He will get us to where we need to be. We all have our preconceived notions on who we are and what we need to do to get there, but God’s infinite wisdom knows best, always.

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A Change of Plans

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Today was symbolic.

I had everything planned out. Wanted to visit this gluten free bakery in the city, as I missed the taste of donuts and cupcakes. My morning was slow and I was unmotivated to leave the house.

Checked the time and it’s after 1 pm. I slowly get dressed and head out the door. The subway station is crowded and a bunch of police officers were roaming around and guarding the downtown platform.

I found the courage to ask the booth teller what was going on. He said, “someone went on the tracks so that platform is blocked off. You are more than able to use the uptown service.”  I nod and say thank you and head for the bus stop.

It was crowded. People were obviously waiting for the bus for a while. When the bus finally arrived it was crowded. As I tried to aboard the bus, the bus driver says something rude to me and I move my hand from the rail and he shuts the door quickly. Everyone fusses behind me and throws a fit but I am quiet and still.

I thought to myself , God must truly not want me to have these cupcakes today.

Now writing this, it amazes me the message here. I tried all my options, to get to my destination, but I couldn’t get there. Every means to get there was blocked, halted and even delayed. I knew instantly that it was just not my time or worth the effort to get there.

Who knows what God was protecting me from, had I pushed and fought my way there. The cupcake, it’s sweet and tasty. It’s comforting and pleasurable, but a cupcake isn’t really the best for nutrition. It really has no substance other than to make me feel good. It wasn’t a goal worth fighting for.

In a way, we may think we know where we want to go, but God has other plans…

 

 

 

 

 

 

The Old Things Have Died A Death by Fire…

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Sometimes you want to go back to who you were yesterday but you can’t. The situation has changed you. You can’t go back, no matter how hard you try. Old you, now feels inauthentic, but new, present you feels full of uncertainty.

“What am I suppose to do now?”, you wonder. “How am I suppose to function?” “Will people notice that I am changed?”

Of course! It’s hard embracing mindsets, feelings and goals that are way different from what you had before. I can assure you that it’s for a greater reason. One more stepping stone to get to the other side.

Sometimes we are faced with situations that challenge our beliefs. That takes us outside of our tiny boxes and forces us to see everything outside of it.

Because sometimes, these uncomfortable situations are meant for us to see ourselves and what we truly want. The things we buried deep inside hoping they will go away.

I know deep down with a certainty that God can take that very thing, dust it off, clean it up, and make it new again. He can turn that very thing into something beautiful. He will refine it with fire, don’t be afraid of the heat. Heat purifies. Because while it’s good for you, it’s ultimately for His glory. He does it for his reputation, his name sake. He does everything with excellence, so don’t think you can rush or bribe him into doing things your way. He knows what’s best.

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