One of the greatest things I’ve done in life was sit through the pain. I didn’t run away, didn’t rationalize, didn’t find unhealthy ways to cope. I dropped everything and sat in my anger, shame and pain.
I sat there and embraced it, completely.
It was in my pain that I saw a loving God and the strength he has given me. In that lonely and painful time, it was then, that I realized that I am in full control over my decisions and actions. I decided, that the greatest power I have, is wielding my faith and holding on to my integrity. All the pain: self-inflicted or caused by others, was not going to make me into a horrible person.
I knew I ready won. No one can take God or my integrity away from me.
I can do good and be good.
I can rise above the pain of life.
I can hold on to what I truly believe in.
I can explore life with faith.
I also accepted that I knew nothing about the promises of God. It’s not enough to do good deeds, we need to know why we do them.
We do good to off balance evil.
We do good to help others.
We do good to glorify God
We do good for our own future – storing up treasures in heaven that never rot or decay.
The sight of heaven and being with God as a reward, made it easier for me to press on. Our mistakes and failures are meaningless under grace. We have a choice, every new day, to chase after God and his ways. We must be willing to throw out human opinion and fear of man to rise up. We will be misunderstood, hated and suffer all kinds of things when we decide to follow God. But, don’t focus on that. Focus on God and what he tells you to do. No one can make you do anything or be anything. No one has that power unless you give it to them.
It’s a choice that affects every other choice you make.
Always aim to choose wisely.