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My Father Is A King And He Dwells In The Heavenlies

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Proverbs 31:22 (NLT) She makes her own bedspreads. She dresses in fine linen and purple gowns.

One day, I was having an intimate conversation with God and I began to speak in poetry –

My father is a King and he dwells in the heavenly courts. It was the beginning of a powerful prayer, a prayer of identity.

God also told me to read Proverbs 31 during another time in prayer. I was like, “excuse me but, what does this have to do with what I’m going through?” I read it anyway.

Proverbs 31:22 (NLT) She makes her own bedspreads, she dresses in fine linen and purple gowns.

 

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This, Proverbs 31, woman knows her worth. She is frugal, a business woman, intelligent, wise and hard working. She isn’t lazy and she isn’t cowardly. She also obeys the Lord.

A lot of times people make this about a wife – and rightfully so, as she is a proverbs 31 wife BUT I believe all people : male and female can learn from her.

You see, when we know who we are in Christ, we start living like it. We start acting like people that know Christ. It’s not enough to say the sinners prayer, say you’re a christian, go to church etc. We must walk with God like Enoch, Moses , Daniel and Joseph did.

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A Princess doesn’t hang around filth – which in our case would be sin. A Princess seeks the best and she is backed up by her father – the King. He has her back, she can run to daddy and he helps her. He protects and provides for her. This doesn’t mean trouble won’t come and it also doesn’t mean she isn’t required to rise up in her identity, but it means she has power and knowledge backing her up. She knows the God of the world protects her spirit.

She has complete confidence in God – not her abilities. Human beings are of great worth to God. We are precious to him. Christ gave up so much – coming to earth as a human and experiencing  life, death and betrayal. He was the perfect demonstration of God’s love – meeting us in our limitations but because He is holy – he is the perfect demonstration of a Godly life.

He is God because he didn’t stay dead and he didn’t continue to live on earth but once alive, he went back to heaven.

We have hope – because we all must die. But the hope is that we too get to spend the next life (after death) with Christ forever.

So, our time on earth, must be spent walking in that identity God has given us. We are children of a great King and everything he does is good. We must trust that our father loves us. We must trust him.

Like Daniel’s friends who trusted God – even knowing that God is not required to save them. But they love him no matter what.

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If God doesn’t give us what we prayed for, will we continue to walk with him? Will we continue to talk to him and trust him?

Flee from sin. A godly life is your comfort and protection. Royalty does not mess with filth. Don’t let your wicked heart taint your life.

Purple is the color of royalty simply because purple dye was rare and costly. Only the rich could afford it. I’m quite sure most of us are not rich, but I truly believe that we can be rich/wealthy with whatever we have. We don’t need to walk around looking destitute, depressed and defeated.

Humility is a deposition. Humility involves gratitude. I truly believe God wants us to be creative and imaginative.

Remember your worth – God loves you. Don’t mess with sin – run from it and trust God. He is your father and he dwells in the heavenly courts. He has all knowledge and all power! He has ultimate control. Trust Him with your future and your soul and you will always be at peace.

God Bless,

 

 

Don’t Numb The Pain – You Have A Choice!

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One of the greatest things I’ve done in life was sit through the pain. I didn’t run away, didn’t rationalize, didn’t find unhealthy ways to cope. I dropped everything and sat in my anger, shame and pain.

I sat there and embraced it, completely.

It was in my pain that I saw a loving God and the strength he has given me. In that lonely and painful time, it was then, that I realized that I am in full control over my decisions and actions. I decided, that the greatest power I have, is wielding my faith and holding on to my integrity. All the pain:  self-inflicted or caused by others, was not going to make me into a horrible  person.

I knew I ready won. No one can take God or my integrity away from me.

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I can do good and be good.

I can rise above the pain of life.

I can hold on to what I truly believe in.

I can explore life with faith.

I also accepted that I knew nothing about the promises of God. It’s not enough to do good deeds, we need to know why we do them.

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We do good to off balance evil.

We do good to help others.

We do good to glorify God

We do good for our own future – storing up treasures in heaven that never rot or decay.

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The sight of heaven and being with God as a reward, made it easier for me to press on. Our mistakes and failures are meaningless under grace. We have a choice, every new day, to chase after God and his ways. We must be willing to throw out human opinion and fear of man to rise up. We will be misunderstood, hated and suffer all kinds of things when we decide to follow God. But, don’t focus on that. Focus on God and what he tells you to do. No one can make you do anything or be anything. No one has that power unless you give it to them.

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It’s a choice that affects every other choice you make.

Always aim to choose wisely.

Ya Bettah Know Who You Be!

OH MY GOODNESS!

Let me tell you something guys!

Let me warn you! If you don’t know who you are and what you want in this world, people will dictate it for you!

I know what I want is typically unusual and I sometimes act really quirky and odd, but I embrace who I am!

If you have a title or a position in church, please, I beg of you to be careful of what you pray over people. I leave every time feeling misunderstood and alone. No one gets me. They assume everything about me but no one ever sat down to talk with me and get to know me and why I’m there. It was then, that I realize that some churches are not what they are suppose to be.

I left feeling horrible, not uplifted. No one came to ask me how I felt or if I wanted to talk. They just left me there.

My walk with God is lonely.  No one cares to hear my story. No one cares to listen. So, I bottle it all up inside. It wasn’t until a few moments ago that I realized something powerful. Every time someone tries to put me down or tell me who I am, that is when I know I’m on the right track. Every time that happens, something good comes out of their negative words.

We are to uplift not tear down.

I held on to every single dream I had in my heart. I told some people and they tried to discourage me or tell me why I can’t do it.  I’ve been misjudged by those I cared about. They choose not to love and encourage me but to kick me when I was down. This came from various people, whether in church or not.

The greatest thing I have is my faith and integrity. Without these two things, I am nothing.

Faith doesn’t equate perfection. I will tell you I had my moments of doubt. I had my moments where I wanted to die and give up. Life was just too unbearable. Suffering is inevitable.

But this time around, despite my nonsense, despite the pain, I held on to God. I was angry with Him, but I didn’t run away from Him. I stood still in my anger and raged through it. I experienced every single feeling: from anger to hopelessness to despair.

I can honestly say that today, I feel a lot better. It happened through a small prayer in bed before I fell asleep. I admitted that I was wrong and I simply said I will no longer fear anything.

It was that simple. I mean seriously, it was just that simple. I do not know what tomorrow will bring, in terms of my mood, but I will take it a day at a time.

The Christian walk is marked by ups and downs. I decided not to hold on to the guilt of missing the mark but to embrace the grace that Christ had died for. I admitted I was wrong and that I needed Christ Daily.

I also found an article that reminded me just how important spiritual discipline is. I became overwhelmed with trying to better my life, but everything flows from my spiritual health. Not physical, mental or emotional health but my SPIRITUAL HEALTH. Everything flows from God.

He gives us wisdom and understanding. He directs where we go and influences the decisions we make. He sets things in order, behind the scenes. He ordains our future and destiny.

Without Him, our efforts are empty. Personally, without Him I can’t even survive. Literally, God has become the very essence of my well-being. I don’t feel healthy without Him. I begin to wither and die like a plant.

The source of my joy is right relationship with Him. My heart became dirty with disappointment and fear. I was too busy to read the bible, pray or even worship through song. God was literally squeezed out of my life because I had too much going on.

I also blamed Him for certain things in my life, instead of trusting that all things will work together for my good.

Despite all of my failures, God has kept me and given me peace this day. It took a bad situation for me to see the truth. I must always remind myself of  who God is and what I know about myself.

I will never be loud or arrogant to prove anything to anyone. I will quietly leave my mark on this earth. I want to be known as the Woman that loved God and walked with Him. For in my weaknesses, He is gloried and in my victories, He is declared King.

Those that love you, will seek to understand you. As Christians, we are called to love one another. That means to truly get to know those we are serving and in fellowship with. Not judging them, putting them in a box and then tossing them aside to move on. Truly connect with people and help them where they are.

 

That is all for now,

 

How to Find The Joy You Once Had

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Do you want to know the secret of regaining your joy? Let your light shine! No preaching, no teaching, no need to nag or complain.

Don’t stay angry, and don’t bottle up your feelings because it will come out some where else.

Just let your light shine. God made you wonderful and beautiful. He placed hidden gems inside of you and as you allow God to reveal and cultivate them, you will be sharing your beauty with others.

The time spent trying to fix others, fix yourself, or even beating yourself up for not being perfect, could be spent doing all the things you enjoy and using it as a means to point to Christ.

Pray for those that hurt you. People WILL hurt you. It’s inevitable. It doesn’t mean you are weak, just human. Give all your feelings of hurt, shame etc, to Christ because he truly cares for you.

And He will give you peace that surpasses all understanding. I trust in this promise. More than anything, peace and joy matters! With these two , that work so closely together, you can accomplish anything.

Wait on God. His timing is true. We are not required to understand but to trust. Let Him be sovereign and let us be obedient.

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Matthew 5:13-16 (MSG)

Salt and Light

13 “Let me tell you why you are here. You’re here to be salt-seasoning that brings out the God-flavors of this earth. If you lose your saltiness, how will people taste godliness? You’ve lost your usefulness and will end up in the garbage.

14-16 “Here’s another way to put it: You’re here to be light, bringing out the God-colors in the world. God is not a secret to be kept. We’re going public with this, as public as a city on a hill. If I make you light-bearers, you don’t think I’m going to hide you under a bucket, do you? I’m putting you on a light stand. Now that I’ve put you there on a hilltop, on a light stand—shine! Keep open house; be generous with your lives. By opening up to others, you’ll prompt people to open up with God, this generous Father in heaven.

 

Be About Your Father’s Business: Walking into Your Purpose

The best yet most painful decision I’ve made this year was to physically and emotionally distance myself from certain people.

I am not strong. In the past, I would always say I’m strong, a leader and someone that can overcome anything. At first, it was an amazing feeling, to feel invincible and untouchable. But as I grew older, I realized that I wasn’t as strong as I thought I was. None of us are, in truth. Human beings are not strong. I’m sure someone will disagree with me and that’s fine. When I realized that I couldn’t depend on myself, that’s when I became liberated.

Another lie I was told was that I needed people. In essence, we are a community of people with talents and skills that are limited to a person. However, I do not believe we should be clinging to a specific person or skill.

My freedom came when I had nothing to prove. I admitted defeat. My admission to being weak led me to pick and choose the company I keep wisely. I saw people for who they were. There were people that were hyper critical of me, put me down and had impossible expectations. To others, I was never good enough. Everyone had an opinion on how I should live my life and who I should be. I would become very angry or defensive, it was draining. Something rose up in my heart, knowing that if I did not get these negative comments out of my ears, I would become an empty shell. When I sought help from people, I was told to BE STRONG or WHO CARES or YOU NEED TO LOVE THEM AND HELP THEM. These words were bondage. It put a burden on me to carry the weight of these people’s words and actions towards me, making me believe that I could control how they responded to me. I was made to fix everyone so that they would love and accept me or rather shut up. Laugh

One day, I had enough and I blocked and deleted everyone. Those that I couldn’t block or delete, I just stopped hanging around them. I was told being alone is of Satan. Laughs hysterically. I was told God didn’t want me to be isolated.  Some days I believed these words, but the more I am living with these conditions, the more I have a sense of freedom. A heavy boulder has been lifted off my shoulders. I am free to think for myself without noise. I am able to feel my own emotions without internalizing others. I am able to focus on things of substance and not always trying to guard myself.

Another thing happened that made me believe that I made the right decision. I had stopped believing that I needed certain people to help me and just moved by faith. Deep down, I knew that God was with me and would send help as needed. I went to Him first and He knew who to send. I’ve had someone bless me without me asking or begging for it.  Because It wasn’t a so called friend, I was not made to feel I owed this person. I was free to take this gift and praise God for it. Acts of kindness are best with no attachments.

I am not alone or isolated like people tell me. The Holy Spirit of God is always with me. Even if the whole world lost it’s inhabitants besides me, I would still not be alone. God would create something and someone out of dirt to help me and vise versa. God is capable of doing anything and everything. I do not put my trust in human strength or wisdom. I do not put my trust in anyone above God.

In my time alone, I got to look into a mirror and see my flaws and shortcomings. I was able to identify them and present them to God. I was also made to see what made me beautiful. A lot of us walk around with shame and guilt but Christ already died for all of our sins! Please, do not feel condemned. Condemnation is for those outside of Christ by their own choice, but for those of us that believe, we are made free.

I’m also talking to those of you that have done horrible things in life. The outcasts and the misfits. Those that mistreated others. Those that have a dark, dark past. I am going out on a limb here to extend the mercy of God even to you. It doesn’t negate what you have done, there will always be consequences for your actions, but mercy and grace means that God will not give to you what you deserve. It is in true mercy and grace that the most despicable person can change. Jesus had mercy on the prostitute that was going to be stoned. In those days, it was considered punishable by death those who committed adultery. The funny part of it all was that none of the men that used her services were to be stoned, just her. Jesus did something that they did not understand. He showed her mercy and THEN told her to sin no more. We don’t show mercy and condone the sin, we show mercy and then point them to Christ so that they may be free from sin.

In my alone time, I am able to decide what I want to do with my life and how I want to serve others. I came to the conclusion that I couldn’t help others if I’m always guarding myself. I am best fit to serve if I stay true to who I am. No one knows me better than God. And I know myself better than anyone knows me. I know what I can and cannot do. I don’t want to be like anyone else but myself. God made each of us unique. We may share similar talents but even the way we use them is different. My advice is stop listening to other people and ask God for yourself. Better yet, live your life and He will order your steps. I spent a majority of my childhood asking God what’s my purpose, not realizing that you simply walk into it as you go.

YOU WALK INTO YOUR PURPOSE.”

Day by day, God places you in situations and circumstances to glorify Him. Did Shadrach Meshach and Abednego know that they were going to be thrown into a furnace that later was the catalyst for the King to acknowledge The Most High? And did Moses know that eventually he would become the one to lead the Israelites out of Egypt and perform miracles? He was an old man when God called him. So don’t worry, If you are close to God’s heart, you are probably touching lives already. It doesn’t always have to be something grand. It could be as small as raising your children to fear God. Loving your spouse. Helping a sick relative. It could be as small as being honest and hard working at your job. It could be as simple and encouraging someone who is sad. Not everyone is called to a large platform. Are you okay with that? In everyday life we are to praise God. It’s not about a title or a large stadium full of people. It’s not about a large church or doing charity work oversees.

There are people in your life right now that could benefit from you being yourself. You don’t have to be a prayer warrior if you are not. Maybe you are best at acts of service. Maybe you’re not good at either of those but you are a good conversationalist. Maybe you are good at crafting and working with your hands, so you make baked goods and other little goodies that declare the goodness of God. Maybe you are good at comforting people.

I’m about to get up and twirl around because of how amazing that is. YOU ARE YOU FOR A REASON! Cultivate YOU and you will be able to help others authentically.

 

Remove yourself from drama, fighting and jealousy. Remove yourself from these petty things and embrace the breath God gave you. He gave you life not to waste but to invest. We are to invest our lives as treasures in heaven. You cannot change people so those that refuse to grow up, must be cut off, so you will not swim around in dirty water. Don’t get sucked into the crabs in a barrel syndrome. You do not need to hang around foolishness to change foolishness. You need to be about your father’s business so they may see the light in you. As you live your life, they will hear about you and they will know from what you do that God is real and true. More than anything else, guard your heart. It is right to have selective hearing and vision. Not everything is okay to listen to or watch. Don’t defile your spirit. You are not strong, so don’t give yourself up to be tempted. Honor the season of solitude and you will reap the benefits. In due season, from a healthy place, you will find and cultivate healthier and godly relationships!

You Can’t Force Love

There is nothing you can do to make people love you.

As I was stirring some oats on the stove-top for breakfast this morning, I was thinking about solitude and love.

I will hold off on solitude for another post coming right after this but,  I want to focus on love first.

You see, no matter how good you are, the kind words spoken, words of encouragement and peace; no matter how often you make someone’s favorite meal, walk the neighbors dog, or mow a friend’s lawn, none of these things will make people love you. You can be the best wife, even the best father, you can win the Nobel Peace Prize, be the most virtuous man or woman on this planet and there will always be someone that hates you. There are despicable people out there who commit many crimes, beat their wives, abuse their children and are still loved by many.

So what’s my point? Well, my point is, if you know you are doing the right by God, continue being yourself. People will nit-pick, criticize and demean you, do good anyway. People will shun and reject you, be happy anyway. People will find fault with you but overlook a major character flaw in others, stay true to yourself anyway. Because the moment you succumb to any of their comments and ill manners, you will be reduced as a person. You will never be able to please everyone. Sure, we compromise in relationships but never, ever compromise who you are. The ones that love you will never force you to compromise who you are and the good things you do. They will encourage you and motivate you to be the best version of yourself.

A lot of times, we become sad when people praise bad behavior. The bible calls that flattery. Fools give and receive flattery. Usually, they do this to get something from the person they are lying to.

You must live by your inner conviction. People will choose who they love and you must never do good things to be loved by others. You do good things for yourself and others for the glory of God and because it’s the right thing to do.

Always see people for who they are and what they show you. You cannot force people to change, you can speak the truth, but give them the space and time to make that decision to grow for themselves. Choose the company you keep wisely. Choose people with the same or similar inner convictions: loving God and others not for what they can gain but simply because they love you. Give each other space to be exactly who you are and be honest in everything you say and do.

Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows. Whoever sows to please their flesh, from the flesh will reap destruction; whoever sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life. Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, especially to those who belong to the family of believers. (Galatians 6:7-10 NIV)

 

 

Contentment

I feel as if these last few days, especially today, that I’m on a purge. The last couple of weeks leading up to yesterday were hard internally.  I have finally allowed myself to listen to the still, small voice,( I had no choice lol) and one by one, the stressors in my life were dropping off like dead flies. All my pent up frustrations came out. They still bombard my mind here and there, but now I see it as a purge. My mind is processing everything and bring it to the  surface.   However, it  is my duty to face them, not ignore them. When I get these memories, I process them and sort them out. I slap the word of God on them too, when necessary. I’m basically talking some sense into me.

It’s so strange that as I am writing this, I feel emotional. ( No, I’m not crying, I promise.) I just feel this burst of joy for the first time ever. True Joy. Like everything will be Okay because God says so. I feel like I’m in surgery and God is my doctor. He’s doing some intense surgery.

I woke up today and saw my true beauty for the first time. Physical and everything else. Not from a place of retaliation or that fake it till you make it phase, but truly accepting and embracing who I am today. I don’t feel that rush I usually feel. But I know that if I ever feel like rushing, God always puts something in my way to slow me down. So there is no point. The slowing down process is painful! Lol

I believe that the more I learn about Christ, the more I learn about myself.

 

It’s an amazing feeling. I guess I can call it contentment. Yes… That’s what I’ll call it…

 

 

 

It’s Time To Go Higher!

I woke up recently, feeling a bit disturbed by my own thoughts and what I have allowed in my own life for the last couple of years. I was displeased in myself for seeking and taking advice from people who knew nothing about my situation, who sometimes gave advice simply to make themselves feel better; and I reduced myself to a mere product of society.

I realized that in the quest for worldly success, all true sense is thrown out the window and we become mindless drones. The quest for superficial beauty, tons of money, and all the comforts in life, drowns out what truly matters most.

I’d sway back and forth between my love for God and my love for success and end up no where anyway.

However, the Lord has been gracious to me, and I see tremendous growth in myself. I thank the Lord for this. It was all because of His pursuit for me to return to Him, that I am where I am today.

The true desire of my heart is to worship the Lord with everything I am. To be who I am outside what other people expect of me, to find my own voice and to silence those that wish to dictate who I should me to sedate their own jealousy. Yes, jealousy. It’s an evil disease of the heart that can infect mothers and fathers, sisters and brothers, neighbors and enemies. It can spring up in the depths of a person’s soul and takes a whole lot to remove.

It hurt me for a while to even think that I’d have to fight the jealous scorn of people but there is one thing I realized. I realized that reducing yourself to please people, to get them to love you, to make them leave you alone is not the answer. They will always find something to hate. Always find a reason to put you down. It is not your fault. Even if you have no human support, remember that the Lord loves you.

After reading Psalms 119, my heart was soothed by the words of desperation in the hearts of godly men, who found comfort in the Word of God despite persecution. They threw down the quest for money and pleasure and sought the salvation of the Lord : which is His unfailing love. God tells me all the time,  ” I love you with an unfailing love.” While people in life will let you down, and we will let ourselves down; we can find comfort and strength in the love of God.

It goes on to say that when your enemies rise up against you, focus on the Word of God or His commandments. Instead of trying to find a solution to everything, these men cried out to God for His help. They believed that God is the one that sorts out conflict and they just cling to him and tell everyone about his law.

The more I tried to defend myself, prove myself or succeed to make my enemies feel ashamed, the worse I felt. It can only get you so far. You become so focused on them that you forget about God and yourself. You forget what truly makes you happy. You forget how to live.

True freedom comes from pursuing God. It doesn’t even come from pursuing passions, relationships or success.

Many people will harshly judge a poor man with a great heart but love a rich man with a filthy heart simply because he is successful. God sees that poor, gentle heart and he will always be with him. That is what I want. The comfort and peace of the Lord. I had to suffer, go through pain and hardship to truly understand what matters most. I had to suffer so I could make a conscious decision to give up all the desires of my heart to be with God. And if he so chooses to bless me with all my desires, once more, I must surrender to the process. I must surrender to Him. I must not try to work it out on my own but to hand it all over to him.

This process of surrender is truly hard. It is hard and many days you feel crazy. People will look at you like you’re a lunatic, just as they did Noah who built an ark, Abraham and Sarah who were old and waiting for their promised child and even Jesus who was accused of many things simply because he defied all what people had expected him to be. People will judge you, call you a child of Satan ( even when you know for a fact you serve God), they will isolate you and speak ill of you to your face. Some will put you down any chance you get or even use you for their own selfish ambition.

I’m going to be real here and say, don’t be dainty in your prayers. God already knows your heart. How many times have I lied to myself, trying to work out the scriptures on my own. Do you really think you can love anyone on your own? No, you need God. The Bible encourages us to pray always. David was blunt about his feelings towards his enemies. When Jesus said pray for your enemies, I don’t think he just meant dainty little prayers. Sometimes we need to be honest and say “God, guess what! I do not like this!” Tell him! Ask him! Cry out to him. Don’t curse your enemies but ask God for strength. Ask God to help you sort out your feelings. You don’t need a therapist or a shrink but the ONE who created you and your enemies. And the greatest thing we are to do for our enemies is to tell them about God. Yes! Keep talking about God and who He is to you. Do not shut up your testimony and do not stop talking about the goodness of God. They will get mad, they might even get violent but never shut up about who God is. Don’t enable your enemies. We live in a world where people are afraid to speak the truth and correct. Did Jesus , when he addressed the jealous religious leaders, hold back the truth from them? Did he just keep silent? No! How can anyone know the truth if we hold it in? Is that what love is nowadays?

The church has watered down what love is suppose to look like. We have become a compromised and laid back sort of people. We are afraid to be like the early church and the prophets of old and proclaim the word of God without fear. I have been guilty of this time to time as well.

I have given up all selfish pursuits in this life. When I looked in the mirror of truth recently, I realized that I lost all sense of normalcy. I didn’t know how to eat like a normal person because I was afraid of gaining weight. I forgot how to have fun because I was determined to overcome every single set back in my life. Stress was an intimate friend of mine and I told God one day that He needed to help me or else I’d be dead in a few years. The answer to stress is easy. Submit to the Lord. Truly submit. The answer does not reside in us…it resides in His presence. It resides in knowing who He is as a real person. We call the Trinity the Persons. Well, God is a person  and since He made us in HIS image he has feelings, thoughts and a will like us. It is not natural for me to be dependent on someone, I had to learn dependency through trials, but the more I sought help, the easier life became. We were not created to be a one man or woman band!

My decision is to stop worrying, stop trying to fit everything together like a jig-saw puzzle. Stop over-thinking, stop trying to fix everything and everyone, stop trying to do it all. JUST STOP. Breathe, slow down and then pray. Jesus said do not worry about tomorrow…do not worry about the future because the future has it’s own problems. It’s a day by day process. Everyday! King Solomon was truly wise when He wrote all His words of wisdom down. We want to eat nasty flavorless food in the name of being healthy but the truth is we cannot add another day to our own lives. It is God that determines the course of our lives. But I’ll leave that for another post.

I am on the quest to find understanding! I am on the quest to find wisdom. I am on the quest to find discernment. I am on the quest to find Christ and through Him, see the Father. I know I am up for a challenge of the lifetime because I’ll be fighting Satan, his minions and most of all MYSELF!

No more stretching in areas of life that are wasteful and pointless but to stretch in the Kingdom of God and His righteousness. His word never lies. If I do those things, He will, in His own marvelous way, provide all my needs. It’s time to go higher!

 

Love That Changes!

I just finished reading an article about a man that was born with a tumor in the middle of his forehead and a leg deformity. He spoke about his mother who, when she first saw him after he was born, considered him too ugly and wished he would die. Over time, she warmed up to him and was very honest about what she thought about him as he grew up. She made up in her mind to love him with honesty and in that he grew up understanding his place in the world.

He grew up, got married and had a baby girl in his 30th year. What amazed me about this story is that this man was able to live a full life, get married/embrace love and create a little family of his own. Instead of wallowing in self-pity over his appearance and disability, he instead was able to live a full life.

Those of us that are physically whole, we shamelessly call ourselves ugly, treat ourselves with such contempt and allow hateful comments of others dictate our self worth. I hear so many people who feel too inadequate to find love, too inadequate to make good and lasting friendships, too inadequate.

We must see our beauty, even in our lack. To see our worth, even when others refuse to respect it. We owe this to ourselves. Being too fat, too skinny, born with brown eyes instead of green, not having perfect teeth, perfect family members…these are silly superficial things! Lord help us!

My heart is bursting from this story and the tears that streak my face as I write this, serve as a testimony of how I had to overcome my own negative self-talk. Accept all of you. Embrace who you are with class and dignity! Like Tasha Cobb sang : “You are loved and it doesn’t matter who don’t like it!”

Whether your life lives up to the standards of others, doesn’t matter! Create a life that you want! A life that suits your personality and gives you a sense of fulfillment. Love yourself and cultivate good character and habits. Dress your body like you love it! Feed your body like it’s a holy temple! Because love springs forth when we have it within. A love that cannot be contained and overflows like a mighty rushing river. A love that engulfs and transforms. A secure, quiet love. A love that isn’t loud and self-seeking but a love that exudes! It becomes part of your DNA! Love changes things!

 

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The Seed Is the WORD OF GOD

The seed of faith is the word of God not money. There is a lot of deception floating around about money being a seed. A lot of well meaning people fall into this farce but plain and simple the seed of faith is the word of God and it is planted in our hearts and produces the harvest of the fruit of the Spirit.

The greatest scheme of the enemy is to get us to distort the word of God because the word of God is what produces our harvest. We are to store treasures in heaven not bribe God with money to get a blessing. I hold on to this truth because it is the word of God that will bring my deliverance in all areas of life.

It’s not good works, it’s not going to church every Sunday, it’s not looking the part and saying the right things, but diligently depositing the word of God into the temple and believing that God will produce the increase!

Galatians 5:22-23 (NIV) “But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.”

Wholeness is what God wants for us. He wants to make us whole! This means producing fruit in all areas of our lives. Whether it be self-control or showing love towards self and others, or having peace despite all circumstances, etc. These are the things God wants for us.

Another point I want to make is, we must work on ourselves before we can ever minister to others. We must allow the Holy Spirit to minister to us in this way first, being kind to ourselves first before we can ever do so for others. Sometimes God will enable us to help others along the way, but ultimately a relationship with God comes before ministry!

I am at a place where I am allowing God to minster to me. To bring me to a place of wholeness in Him and to rely solely on his Word alone.

This means more to me than any material goals I have. It means more to me than any other relationship I have. Because true peace comes from inside of us not the outside.

No one and no thing can fill the void in our hearts like God can. It is truly the Word of God that sets us free, every single day, step by step. A process we go through every day of our lives.

I learned something important. Sin can be conquered, Jesus told us he already did that. We do not fight sin as believers but TEMPTATION. There is a different. Sin leads to death and is a state. After we are delivered from a sin or a lifestyle/habit of disobedience, we are now walking in obedience and righteousness. We must now preserve this righteous state by resisting the devil aka temptation through prayer and feeding the spirit with God’s word. This is the example that Jesus gave is in the desert. He didn’t allow circumstances : being hungry and tired, deter him from his state of righteousness. He didn’t give into his flesh: literally his natural needs. We too can be like Christ because this he promised us! Cling to the promises of Christ! All that he has done, is freely given to us! What a mighty God we serve!

Money and the lust of the flesh will lead us astray if we put our confidence in that and twist the word for own selfish gain. Being a christian is rewarding, freeing and truly life changing but it comes with a price. It means we give up everything we once knew and take up the cross of Jesus. It means not always having our own way but submitting to a holy God. In time, this becomes our own nature. We feel joy in the things of God and are disgusted by things that God hates. But we must be willing to crucify, kill, destroy, annihilate the flesh. We must resurrect Godly boundaries and walk in humility and God given authority to speak, confess and believe what God promised. We will offend many because we no longer please the world but please God. They will never understand but we must be like Jesus and say ” I’m about my Father’s business.”

Source: https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Galatians+5%3A22-23